Mission: Love Yourself

I am not making this blog post to tell everyone 'Hey, I'm perfect and have my life together.' but for the opposite reason. I want to be better, I want to be able to tell people that I love myself so see this blog post as a way of me telling people how I am trying to get better at loving and accepting who I am and not as a step by step guide.

The picture I chose is a quote by Queen's front man Freddie Mercury and it is very true, there will always be someone better then you but they won't be you. Oscar Wilde also wrote 'Be yourself, everyone else is already taken.' One of the ways I try to love myself more is by listing all the things that I think I'm good at; it'll be hard at first if you are stuck in a bit of a rut but maybe you could ask friends what they think.

This goes hand in hand with learning to forgive yourself, we as humans all make mistakes sometimes. That's life. We don't have the ability to change the past, no matter how much we might want to, but we can learn to forgive what we have done and leave it in the past. This can be a very hard thing to do, I occasionally am laying in bed about to go to sleep when my brain deems it the best time to remind me of all the stupid things I have done. It's almost as if it knows I am exhausted and decides to pick that very moment to make me feel bad. Whilst we are on the topic, saying no to someone or telling them you are too busy because you need a break is not a bad thing. Everyone needs breaks to avoid burn-out and if that means taking time to be alone with yourself then take the time. It is important, always think of yourself as the top priority in life.

When I was looking online, to help me write this blog post it suggested that to feel better you should start a journal and I guess this is what the blog is in a way. This blog is a not only a way to help me build up my non-fiction writing experience but also to let everything that is bothering me out as a creative medium. So I'm not saying that you should all start a blog but find something creative that you can use to express the way you feel rather then letting it boil up inside. Sometimes it is okay to cry... no scrap that! Anytime it is okay to cry. Nowadays being sad seems to be a such a taboo subject and that is very dangerous to a lot of people.

Loneliness is a very dangerous enzyme when added to the feeling of losing your pride, after my breakup it was one of the things that affected me the most. I've explained to my friends that it felt as if I was the secondary character to my own life. It felt as if I was in the situation but wasn't there mentally. Since then I have learnt that this feeling is very normal especially because I still hang out in the same friendship group with my ex. The feelings are still trying to pass and although I try to keep on a brave face in some ways that is worse because again I am trying to keep everything in. Talking to friends, planning stuff with others are simple ways of trying to make yourself better. Even if you feel as if you want to sit in your room all day try and get out, is what I am saying I guess.

So what I have learnt through this experience is that you need to take time for yourself to help you heal, you need to make sure that you are not keeping everything in and not talk to anyone because soon it will become a dangerous cycle that will threaten to make things worse then they originally are. Like I said this is just what I have learnt since everything seemed to go down at the beginning of the year. Don't expect to feel better after the first day, or the next week... give yourself time to heal.

Thank you for reading my blog, if you need anyone to talk to don't be scared to reach out; either using the contact section of the page or my email (teenwritermillie@gmail.com)

Signing out Millie.